heartless and tears

yap...i am..too sensitive....being at this state of mind make me feel horrible...everything was wrong..everything was hurtful...and nothing was good...i miss everything...half of my soul is going too far..away from me...i just feel like living like a thatch,,,,and i hate that so much..i miss every single thing that close to me...that i know would care and appreciate me just like who am i...i miss my old self...being tough and always positive..but now...its gone..

i already said..everything was wrong right now..i already said..i need something to comfort me....and i dont need all of this.... i know who am i...may be you can look at me..."owh..she's still smiling..can laugh..everything in control.." goshhh...i'm not! can you understand this? even for once??

sometime this come across my mind.... i want to be the most powerful person and heartless so that i will not being bullied, laughed at and even hurting...owh,, please...just once...don't treat me like this... i already said....i'm sick, tired and feeling like to give up....

sorry people..i dont like this...especially rite now... i love all of you...but this is not the rite time to play with my feeling....hey..its hard rite now...and i need to make up my mind...even stand up again..forgetting everything and start it all over again...please support me..and don't let me down... =(